Stewarding The Light He Left Behind

…Stewarding the light he left behind.

By so wonderfully expressing and sharing her grief and recovery from it, Mary Katherine Ham is a blessing to all.

On the two-year anniversary of the tragic accidental death of her husband, Jake Brewer.

BobLee and AgentPierce often mention having “nothing in common with rank&file liberals but a pair of opposable thumbs”. When I read something like this I wonder if “those people” with their vulgarities and obscenities are even capable of “getting it”?

…I mean “do liberals get it”; not BobLee and AgentPierce. I KNOW they get it.

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After My Husband’s Death, I’m Learning To Steward The Light He Left Behind

When you lose someone, you go through a lot of metaphors. Our vocabulary falters in the face of death.

Today is the two-year anniversary of the death of my husband, Jake. It took me about a year to come up with something that felt like it made sense of what I was feeling.

In the weeks after Jake died, letters and cards flooded in from friends and strangers alike. With each card’s arrival, I’d edge open the envelope in a stunned sort of sadness. I sat over the rough-hewn, wooden dining room table we’d picked out together just months before he died, cross-legged and pregnant, poring over sometimes dozens of notes a day.

And with every envelope, I’d have a glimmer of hope, that somehow, someway, this one would have an answer inside. I knew at the time it was irrational, but I couldn’t stop. The hope was too tantalizing. Maybe this was the one—this card would explain everything! This letter would give me the reason our lives had been so utterly shattered in an instant. But the fact is those words, no matter how well-meaning and wise, couldn’t tell me that. Even Scripture could only reassure, not really explain in the way humans want but can’t have.
The reasons for Jake’s death are not apparent. Luckily, the reasons for continuing to live are. But I searched for a way to say what I was feeling.

I love the idea of the divine spark. It crosses a lot of cultures and religions, the idea that you carry a bit of the Creator inside you, that it animates your life. …READ MORE… .

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